Here’s how I work
I know I’m difficult. I know my issues can be a lot to handle, so I keep them to myself until I truly can’t anymore. I’m an open person, but I keep a line. If I let you in past that line, if I break down every wall, if I let you into my head and you let me down - I will drop you so quickly. If I have an incredibly bad night, one where I don’t trust myself, and you aren’t there even in the slightest, without any excuse, I want you out. Not because I’m selfish or demanding of attention, but because I needed you. If I let you in, I will drop anything the second you need me, because I know what it feels like to be so low you don’t want to live anymore. I know what it feels like to just have someone there. I invest far too much into you for you not to. I let you in so you could help me not grab that razor blade, not curl into a ball and cry, not sink into myself. I let you in because I need people. If you don’t want that, don’t ask me to break down those barriers for you. Know what you are signing up for.
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